The ultimate example of not leaking on your team doesn’t come from a boardroom. It comes from combat.
During my pre-deployment training for Kandahar in 2009, I was part of the Operational Mentoring and Liaison Team. Our role was to embed directly with the Afghan National Army; high stakes, limited support, and constant uncertainty around where the threat would come from next.
As part of that preparation, we had a session on incident management – how to stay composed when everything goes sideways. One of the instructors had just come off deployment and walked us through a real scenario his team had experienced.
An improvised explosive device struck two vehicles in his patrol, wounding multiple soldiers. Almost immediately after, the Taliban initiated an attack. The firefight itself was short, but intense. Canadian and Afghan forces returned fire quickly and decisively, but in those moments, it was chaos.
He then walked us through what happened next.
They secured the area, treated the wounded, and called in MEDEVAC. The situation was handled with control and discipline, exactly as it should be under pressure.
By every measure, he was doing his job and doing it well.
Then, as the final helicopter was preparing to lift, his Master Warrant Officer approached him and said:
“Sir, check yourself.”
He looked down.
His uniform was soaked in blood.
His blood.
He had been hit and hadn’t even realized it.
And in that moment, everything shifted.
Up to that point, he had been fully effective – making decisions, directing his team, controlling the situation. But now, with that realization, he understood something critical: he could no longer guarantee that level of clarity.
He wasn’t leaving because he had failed.
He was leaving because staying would degrade the team.
So he got on the last helo and left his team behind.
Not because he couldn’t lead.
But because he knew he was about to stop leading effectively.
That’s what real leadership under pressure looks like.
And here’s the part most leaders miss.
There is a line.
When you cross it, you’re no longer helping.
You’re the liability.
And you don’t need a battlefield to get there.
This story comes from a section in my book, You Don’t Know Sh*t About Leadership: And Neither Do I, where I break down what it really looks like when leaders lose control under pressure—and what it takes to prevent that from leaking onto the team.
THE PART MOST LEADERS GET WRONG
What makes that story powerful isn’t the firefight.
It’s the decision at the end.
He didn’t step out because he broke. He stepped out because he recognized the moment before he would.
That’s where most leaders get it wrong.
They wait for obvious failure. They wait until it’s visible. They wait until something forces the decision.
By that point, the damage is already underway.
The most dangerous phase isn’t when you’re failing. It’s when you’re still functioning—still delivering, still making calls—but your margin for error is gone.
That’s where leaders quietly become the risk.
HOW LEADERS BECOME THE BOTTLENECK
This rarely looks like collapse.
It looks like friction.
You stay involved in decisions your team should own. You recheck work that was already handled. You insert yourself into problems that don’t require you.
Each action feels responsible. Together, they create drag.
Decisions slow. Ownership blurs. Strong people disengage quietly and start looking elsewhere.
Work that should move begins to stall—not because the team lacks capability, but because everything routes back through you.
At that point, you’re no longer leading the system.
You are the system.
And systems built around a single point of decision-making don’t scale. They stall.
THE SIGNALS YOU’RE CLOSE TO THE LINE
You don’t get a clear warning when you’re approaching that threshold.
You get patterns.
You become more reactive. Small issues trigger disproportionate responses. Conversations that require patience start to feel heavier, so you either delay them or rush through them.
Your trust in your team shifts. Work comes back to you not because it has to, but because you no longer feel comfortable letting it move without your involvement.
I’ve been there—short with people, visibly frustrated, carrying tension into conversations that didn’t warrant it. At the time, I told myself it was the pace, the pressure, the responsibility.
It wasn’t.
It was the early loss of control over my decision space.
At the same time, your thinking narrows. You stay busy, constantly engaged, but you’re no longer stepping back far enough to think clearly. You’re reacting instead of leading, and the gap between the two starts to disappear.
Individually, these are easy to justify.
Together, they’re not.
THE DECISION POINT THAT ACTUALLY MATTERS
The line isn’t burnout.
The line is judgment.
The moment you can no longer consistently make clear, sound decisions is the moment you need to step back.
Leadership is not defined by effort or presence. It’s defined by the quality of decisions that move the team forward.
Once that degrades, everything downstream follows.
You slow decisions that require speed. You rush decisions that require thought. You rely on instinct when your capacity is already compromised.
Your team adjusts quickly.
Not by stepping up.
By stepping back and waiting.
WHY MOST LEADERS STAY TOO LONG
The barrier isn’t awareness.
It’s identity.
You keep showing up because that’s who you are. You’ve built your reputation on carrying weight, solving problems, and staying in the fight.
The problem is, you don’t adjust when how you’re showing up stops working.
There’s always a voice telling you to push through, to handle it, to stay in control.
That voice is ego.
And it’s most convincing right at the point where your effectiveness is starting to slip.
Stepping back isn’t weakness.
It’s control.
WHAT STEPPING BACK ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE
This isn’t about disappearing.
It’s about restoring clarity before you continue to lead.
In practice, that means making deliberate, short-term adjustments:
- Remove yourself from non-critical decisions for 48 hours
- Push decision authority down one level immediately
- Identify where you’ve reinserted yourself and stop it
In some cases, it means stepping away entirely to reset.
The point is intentionality.
You’re not stepping back because you can’t handle it.
You’re stepping back so you can handle it properly when you return.
BUILDING DISCIPLINE BEFORE YOU NEED IT
If you wait until you’re at the line, you’re already late.
Strong leaders build systems that protect their decision-making capacity long before it becomes an issue. They create clarity around ownership so decisions don’t continuously return to them. They surround themselves with people who will challenge them when needed, and they protect time to think instead of living in constant reaction.
This isn’t about balance.
It’s about control.
And discipline is what keeps you from reaching that point in the first place.
THE SELF-CHECK
You don’t need a dramatic moment to know when you’re getting close.
You need honesty.
If you recognize several of these patterns, it’s time to pay attention:
- You’ve become more reactive than usual
- You’re avoiding conversations you would normally address directly
- Your trust in your team has started to erode
- Your decisions feel rushed or lack clarity
- You are constantly engaged but rarely stepping back far enough to think clearly
Individually, these can be explained away.
Together, they shouldn’t be ignored.
FINAL WORD
That leader didn’t step onto the helicopter because he had failed.
He stepped on because he understood exactly where the line was and had the discipline to act before crossing it.
That’s the standard most leaders never reach.
I’ve crossed that line before without realizing it. Most leaders do at some point. The difference is whether you recognize it early enough to do something about it.
Your team doesn’t need your constant involvement.
They need your judgment.
And when that judgment starts to slip, the decision in front of you is straightforward, even if it isn’t easy.
You can stay and slowly become the problem.
Or you can step back, reset, and return ready to lead.
If you recognized yourself in this, don’t brush it off. That’s how leaders stay in the fight longer than they should and start doing damage without realizing it.
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